
The boy dreams. The dream captivates and challenges and engulfs him, drawing him forward in
pursuit, while at times burdening him with more than he thinks he can bear.
Quit?
He can’t. In his heart he knows that someone will need him someday, and he must be ready to serve
with excellence and integrity.
The boy becomes a man, marries, and starts a family. He graduates from Harvard Medical School and
The Mayo Clinic. The man becomes a doctor.
But has The Dream been fulfilled?
I am a doctor with a troubled conscience.
I am a friend with a heavy heart.
January 2021: I am standing next to an open grave. Rays of sun cannot cheer the depths of pain and
loss in my heart. The body of my dear friend, Bruce, is being lowered to its final resting place.
Sobs from his eldest daughter fill the air.
Age 79 and dead from COVID. Just a few weeks earlier, we shared laughs and bear hugs over
Thanksgiving dinner. “Doctor, what do you think of this virus?” was the topic of conversation
across the table.
Bruce was a good man, a special man. The kind of guy who found a way to connect with everyone he
met. He had the gift of gab and a way of interacting that made people feel accepted and valued. The
fabric of humanity suffered a tear that day, and, as I marked the occasion, I couldn’t help but
think -- dammit!, if he had just been able to hold out a few months until the vaccine arrived. It
felt cosmically unjust -- like sinking under the waves just moments before the lifeguard arrived.
March 2021: vaccine arrival. I greet the news of the vaccine with all due medical and patriotic
enthusiasm: a ray of hope (!) and a balm for the psyche of a country battered by the pandemic and
political strife. Operation Warp speed had delivered the goods: cutting-edge technology poised to
prime our bodies for the fight of our lives.
I dutifully rolled-up my sleeve and received my first Pfizer, repeating again six weeks later. No
ill effects other than a bit of malaise and a sore deltoid for a few days. I was glad to have this
available and recommended it far and wide to patients.
“If all you have is a hammer, everything looks like a nail.”
The passage of time brought medical and social concerns: Mandates? Get-vaccinated-or-get-
fired?
Whatever role the vaccines still have (high-risk populations, nursing home residents, etc.), they
have risks, and, just as with any medical intervention, should only be recommended based on an
individualized risk/benefit analysis with proper informed consent.
Mandates and travel requirements sounded aggressive to me. But this was force-fed to us as a
necessary public health response: desperate times called for desperate measures. Unvaccinated
people were spreading this virus and endangering us all. Ignorance and personal choice were one
thing; selfishness at the expense of others was entirely different.
My mind held an uneasy peace. But as time wore on, and my investigations continued, my equilibrium
was disturbed, and the tidy ends of this story began to unravel...
Turns out that leaked CDC data revealed vaccinated people developed viral loads that were just as
high (read here and here), prompting this juicy quote from Dr. Fauci: “You can make a reasonable
assumption that vaccinated people can transmit the virus just like unvaccinated people can,” Fauci
said.
Then a UK study, which followed households for 12 months to track infection rates, confirmed that
peak viral load did not differ by vaccination status, and then concluded with this bombshell: You
were just as likely to catch COVID from a vaccinated family member as from an unvaccinated one (25%
if your sick family member was vaccinated and 23% if unvaccinated).
Meanwhile, back in Seattle, my sister-in-law was neighbor-shamed into getting vaccinated (despite
her hesitations and medical comorbidities) because the parents of her 3-year-old son’s best friend
wouldn’t let the kids play together until she got the shot.
Understand that the vaccines have not been updated since this entire pandemic began. That’s right
folks: the vaccines still being administered are against the original Wuhan strain -- which, of
course,
is no longer in circulation.
We are now dealing with version 4.0 (Wuhan, Alpha, Delta, and now Omicron and its variants), and
with each generation vaccine efficacy has weakened.
Comparative example: How excited would you be about getting the flu shot from 4 years ago?
(To be fair, the same problem of declining protection against new variants is also seen with
natural immunity.)
So, the vaccines still appear to offer some benefit but not enough to make my heart race. Even more
worrisome is the potential that, paradoxically, they may make it easier to contract these newer
strains (read here).
At first, we thought the SARS-COV-2 spike protein was benign –- just a thing the virus uses to gain
access to our cells. But it turns out that the spike protein is highly toxic -– damaging the lining
of our blood vessels (“endothelial damage”), predisposing to blood clots and provoking inflammation
and tissue damage wherever it is found.
So what are we to make of the fact that the vaccines instruct our cells to produce high levels of
spike protein? Concerning?
Pfizer, Moderna, J&J and Novavax all create production of “full length” spike proteins, and this
paper clearly states that “full length” proteins trigger vascular damage in lung tissue.
Furthermore, these spike proteins are known to circulate widely after injection.
“But isn’t the structure of the vaccine-produced spike protein different?”
Outstanding question; so glad you asked...Yes, it has some slight structural differences, but not
in any way that has been proven to make it less toxic. As mentioned above, it is a “full length”
spike protein, and those are known to be damaging. Furthermore, it is capable of being cleaved and
releasing the “S1 subunit”, which is the exact same S1 subunit as the natural virus and which is
known to cause a host of serious problems, including blood clots and destruction of cell membranes.
(This paper shows pictures of S1 subunits from spike proteins causing blood platelets to clump and
activate. And this intrepid doctor and lawyer took before-and-after pictures with a microscope of
what happens when the Pfizer vaccine touches a sample of blood. And here we read how the S1 subunit
is a toxin that directly damages cell membranes.)
Thus, the CDC is entirely inaccurate when it describes the spike protein as “a harmless piece of a
protein.”
Of course, a natural SARS-COV-2 infection also brings its own spike protein burden, but this is
predicted to be less extensive (in amount and duration) than the vaccine-induced burden, since the
vaccine mRNA has been engineered (pgs 5-7) to resist degradation so as to create a "super-potent"
burst of spike protein production.
At first we were told the vaccines stayed localized to the site of injection -- turns out they’ve
got more wheels than a teenager with a new car and a hot date.
We know that the vaccines release SARS-CoV-2 spike protein into general circulation.
We now know -- from Pfizer’s own data submitted to Japanese regulators – that mRNA vaccines travel
far from the site of local injection, creating visible uptake in the spleen, liver, ovaries and
adrenal glands of the experimental animals.
Meanwhile, the #1 Google search result still tells us this:
That’s curious... because these scientists isolated viral mRNA and spike proteins from lymph node
biopsies 60 days after injection.
The consequences of the vaccine traveling to distant organs -- including the ovaries -- raise grave
concerns for Women’s Health. We know that polyethylene glycol, an ingredient found in the Pfizer
and Moderna injections, has been found to pose a “potential toxicity risk” to women’s ovaries. And
now we know that 30,000 women in Britain have reported menstrual changes after receiving the
vaccine. Then a paper comparing adverse event ratios after the covid vaccine vs. the influenza vaccine revealed these startling increases: fetal cardiac disease 16x, fetal malformation 20x, and fetal death 38x.
As regards lactation, we know there is a theoretical basis for transmission via breastmilk (page
15). And we even have mainstream medical experts admitting that “These conversations are
challenging because the Pfizer/BioNtech vaccine trial excluded lactating individuals. As a result,
there are no
clinical data regarding the safety of this vaccine in nursing mothers” (emphasis mine).
The CDC boldly states that “COVID-19 vaccines have undergone—and will continue to undergo—the most
intensive safety monitoring in U.S. history.”
Really?
Hmmnn… Does the “most intensive safety monitoring in U.S. history” include being rushed to market
under Emergency Use Authorization while using the populace as a giant Phase 3 clinical trial (often
under coercion)?
(The discrepancies and shortcomings of the Pfizer data are painstakingly and damningly laid out in
this censored video)
Does it include the FDA siding with Pfizer in a freedom-of-information request in which they wanted
75 years to fully disclose their raw data for independent analysis? (Read Dr. Doshi’s cogent plea
for transparency.)
Does it include the CDC dismissing vaccine injury data reported to the Vaccine Adverse Events
Reporting System (VAERS), as follows:
“Reports of death after COVID-19 vaccination are rare.”
Really? Cause this data from the Open VAERS project doesn’t look rare to me.
If you’ve not heard of it, you need to be aware of the Vaccine Adverse Events Reporting database
(VAERS). This was established by Congress in 1990 and meant to serve as warning system of
potential vaccine side-effects.
Post-vaccination deaths reported to the US VAERS system, 1990 to November 2021 (OpenVAERS)
The CDC attempts to reassure us...
“FDA requires healthcare providers to report any death after COVID-19 vaccination to VAERS, even if
it’s unclear whether the vaccine was the cause. Reports of adverse events to VAERS following
vaccination, including deaths, do not necessarily mean that a vaccine caused a health problem.”
“Ahhh....That’s better.… So who else feels calm and at peace now?
Correlation is not necessarily causation -- I get it. But that is definitely not reassuring, now,
is it?, and let’s just say that the barn door to causation is flung wide-open. In my opinion,
#30,479 deaths (as of 8/29/22) should prompt serious, urgent and meaningful investigation. For
that, I commend you to Jessica Rose Ph.D. who produced the definitive interview on VAERS risk.
Oh, and it’s not just the VAERS database sending us these signals. As this superlative article from
Dr. Pierre Kory elaborates, Life Insurance, Medicare and even German health insurance claims all
report a surge in deaths—not just since COVID but specifically since the vaccine rollout.
Simple question: If they are so safe, why do the vaccine manufacturers need total legal immunity
from any potential harms?
Simple question: Can you handle the truth?
1. Blood clots (read here and also here)
2. Multisystem inflammatory disease (read here and also here)
3. Reactivation of dormant viral infections (read here)
4. “Dramatic alterations in gene expression of almost all immune cells"
5. Reduction of CD8 T cells and Type 1 interferon response (read here); therefore, increased cancer
risk. Details about Type 1 interferon and cancer in this article
6. Reprogramming the immune system and reducing response to toll-like receptors TLR4, TLR7 and TLR8
(read here and also here)
7. Triggering of underlying autoimmune conditions (read here)
8. Potential for worse subsequent infections due to Antibody Dependent Enhancement (read here)
In fact, just prior to widespread vaccine rollout, this Chinese virologist warned us against hasty
deployment and suggested carefully investigating possible safety concerns.
But enough about numbers and data– let’s talk about real, individual people. Like my family.
Like my 23-year-old daughter (healthy nursing student) who, after her mandatory vaccine, complains
of persistent difficulty with concentration and memory. Or my 17-year-old daughter’s friend -- last
year a district-champion long-distance runner, this year struggling to complete workouts due to
persistent chest pain. Or my former in-law, who was doing well until breast cancer came out of
remission just after her second vaccine and quickly overwhelmed her. Ditto for the dear woman who
hosted me as a high-school exchange student 30 years ago and became a second mother to me.
Her funeral was just last month.
Quick question, class: Raise your hand if you personally know someone who has had a serious
vaccine side effect.
So where is the vigorous, open, honest, urgent, strident, (outraged?), national discussion of this
situation? Tens of thousands of people are potentially being injured or dying prematurely and this
is not talked about every night on the news? Or in some regular CDC press briefing?
What is going on?
Turns out you can’t talk openly about vaccine risks. “We don’t talk about Bruno.” Verboten. Any
candid discussion of risks –- even by credentialed experts speaking in their field of study -– has
been censored because “encouraging vaccine hesitancy” has become a thought-crime, and in the name
of “combatting COVID misinformation”, the government and media have displayed a dazzling level of
cooperation. Desperate times call for desperate measures, indeed.
In the new state-sponsored Public Health Religion, to raise these concerns is to commit The
Unpardonable Sin.
The result? As in the worst extremes of religious extremism, the self-righteously smug authorities
summarily execute judgement: your social media accounts will disappear, your interviews will vanish
from YouTube, your credibility will be maligned, and your employment and livelihood will be
threatened.
Cancel-culture sucker-punched modern medicine and the poor white coats never knew what hit them.
Do I exaggerate?
Do an internet search for Robert Malone MD, Pierre Kory MD, Paul Marik MD, Didier Raoult or Ryan
Cole MD. Or how about Luc Montagnier Ph.D, Michael Yeadon Ph.D, Byram Bridle Ph.D, or Jessica Rose
Ph.D. Tell me what you find… There’s a reason half these brave souls ended-up on Substack.
Do I exaggerate?
My doctor friend, employed by our local hospital, offers this confessional: “We received an email
stating if we brought up concerns about the vaccine or were less than enthusiastic about
encouraging each patient to get it, we would be subject to termination.”
He is a pediatrician.
Meanwhile, back on the farm, in a strident appeal published in the British Medical Journal, a group
of doctors cogently lay out a case against vaccine mandates, and as regards children, end by
saying:
“For young age groups, in whom covid-related morbidity and mortality is low, and for those who have
had covid-19 infection already, and appear to have longstanding immunological memory, the harms of
taking a vaccine are almost certain to outweigh the benefits to the individual, and the goal of
reducing transmission to other people at higher risk has not been demonstrated securely” (emphasis
mine).
Meanwhile, reports from inside the CDC and FDA indicate low morale and cognitive dissonance as
senior scientists realize these agencies are prioritizing politics over public health. And the CDC
now admits serious shortcomings and announces a restructuring.
This is not about red state vs blue state. This is not even a broader discussion about vaccines in
general. (I grew up receiving all required vaccinations.) When my father was stuck in a nursing
home with Alzheimer's, I was adamant that he receive the vaccine, and I would make that same
decision again today. And my goal is not to stoke the fires of the Outrage Machine so that my tribe
can become more indignant about what “they” are doing to us.
My intention is to have an honest, patient-centered examination of this situation and to allow that
discussion to illuminate larger issues of bioethics, autonomy, collusion, greed, censorship, and
freedom of information.
I am not asking you to agree with my position but only to be aware of all facets of the issue.
To my mind, this is is about freedom. This is about honesty and transparency. And, most
importantly, in the end, this is about people: real, individual human beings trying to live their
best lives for a brief time here on Planet Earth. We deserve to know the truth. And we deserve to
have our truth acknowledged –- like the poignant story of this vaccine immunologist who herself
became a victim of vaccine injury.
I began this journey as a friend with a heavy heart; I have ended as a doctor with a troubled
conscience.
But I have hope.
“Then you will know the truth, and the truth shall set you free” (John 8:32).
Your Partner In Health,
Further Reading
Save Yourself From the COVID Spike Protein
Voice for Science And Solidarity
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